I think there is something wrong with me. I seem to be addicted to the inappropriate, or just really self destructive. Whenever a friend starts dating someone, I become suddenly and irresistibly infatuated with the new person. Well… evidently not ‘irresistibly’ as i never act on these stupid obsessions because they’re so INAPPROPRIATE, but they make life very hard and are ultimately very distracting. In the past I’ve developed feelings for a boy two years younger than me that i was
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Look, I’m a fairly open minded person. However I’m not alright with PDA. I get it, you two are “in love” or something, but I don’t want to see you making out in front of me. I’m afraid to confront you because maybe I’ll be seen as a bigot, but really I’ve talked to other girls who openly kiss their boyfriend in front of me about my uncomfort. To top it off, you both live here, you have beds assigned to you, you don’t need to be reserving common areas to sleep together at
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I can’t believe I’m about to do this. A friends going out with me and my boyfriend for drinks tonight, then coming back to our place for a menagertrois. I love him so much and I don’t know how to tell him I don’t want to do this, he’s so excited. I’m about to start shooting tequila. Hopefully I’ll get so drunk tonight I won’t remember the scenes that are about to play out. Nothing will get those images out of my mind. And secretly, in the bsck if my mind, I’m wondering why he
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FUCKING SHIT!!
I HATE AMERICAN SOCIETY!!! AND LOVE IT AT THE SAME TIME!!!
How many times have I tried to figure out what the fuck we are supposed to do here. As if there was a right way to live life. And there was some God who had a plan for us. WELL THERE IS NO DAMN GOD!!! My religion was a fucking cult designed to repress my spirit and make me feel like shit!!! I served it for over 20 years!! ! DAMN SHIT LIFE!!!
I even served a church mission and told people bullshit to make them realize
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well it was going good till college - the father figure who was a drunk. when college started and well some of high school is when drugs came into the big picture. Lots of drug… everyday. Anyhow back on the story failed outa college 3 times iv had my best friend OD in front of me on my birthday R.i.p. man, 2 weeks after that another one of my best friends breaks his C2 in his neck b.c he got hit by a drunk driver couldnt bring myself to see him for a month, watched most of my friends and my
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