Search

Subscribe

Receive daily digests of our latest posts.

RSS Or subscribe to our RSS feed.
FeedBurner

Popular Tags

abandoned, abortion, abroad, absolute, absolutely, abuse, abused, abused hatred jealousy evny, abusive, accept, accident, acting, actions, active, addicted, addiction, adults, advice, affair, afraid, alcohol, alcoholism, alright,

Absolutly useless

Cry

Posted 3rd August 2011 36

My mother has recently been in hospital, having heart attacks and a stint. I tried my hardest to help, to be the good daughter so she wouldn’t worry but it didn’t work. I mean yeah i did the cleaning helped with the kids and what not but she knew i was scared, she knew i wanted to scream on every other breath. I feel like i failed her, i should have been strong but i couldn’t hide that i was crying inside. My mother is the most important thing in my life, i really can’t live without her. I feel ridiculous feeling bad for myself and i know i should suck it up, but i cant seem to get out of this head space, i could have lost her and i cant deal with that. She’s the strongest woman i know but this happened to her, what if something else happens or it happens again.. i don’t think i can cope. I haven’t told her that i feel this bad because i dont want her to worry, but i just want to cry all the time and hug her so hard and make sure she’s never hurt again. I apologised for being needy at the hospital but its still hard not to try and wrap her up in cotton wool. I can’t loose my mum.

useless needy

Got something to say? Post Now! It’s totally anonymous… rant or confess about anything!

Bookmark This Page

Digg reddit Delicious StumbleUpon Facebook MySpace Twitter Google

Comments

Nobody has posted any comments. Be the first!

Add Comment

Enter an alias, you may leave this blank
Make your thoughts about this post known to the world

Post a confession or rant now! It’s completely anonymous.