Posted 15th April 2016 1218

(warning: crap puns ahead)

if your into essays; this is the rant for you! damn, i have a lot to get off my chest.
first of all im such a jealous bitch, which embarrasses me so much. especially when someone my age is better at drawing, singing or writing (or all of them) than me, i feel like i have to live up to their standards and i’m angry at myself because i feel like i should be as good as they are, it basically makes me feel like crap. i’m quite talented at english but i dont really get noticed by anyone for it. my friend is known in our group as the one whos best at poems and kind of one of my english teachers favourite (no, really, my english teacher made a BOOK of my friend’s poems for her for gods sake, and has like one or two of the poems on her wall) and i feel really bad about saying this because im really worried i’m going to come off as boastful or bitchy for this but im just attempting to be honest (probably failing. first world problimz amririte?! oh ok) but i’m honestly not that bad at making poems. i think i might of brought something along those lines up (not in a rude way, ya silly goose! jk im going to make a wild guess and say your human) and my friend said ‘but she (as in my english teacher) didn’t make a book of your poems did she?’ i think it was just banter but it kind of hit home. and then theres a girl whos the best in the class i guess and shes a teachers favourite too and when people have done a good piece she’ll compare them to her. “that piece of writing was very good, i actually mistaken you for (lets just call the girl:) Jenny” so yeah basically everyone is always in awe when she gets the highest score in the class (and ignores me even though i got second highest. *toasts* true story bro) and shes really nice but shes a living mary sue ;o if i bring it up there is no doubt there’ll be “oh ur just jealous shes so brilliant at english” or something. which is basically why i’m here!! *insert applause in this area* im quite good at art as well to be honest, but i am NEVER noticed in my art class. though its probably because i dont really like drawing neatly and painting neatly (not possible even if i try i’m crap at painting in general) because it doesnt look true to life and too precise. bottling it all up has always seemed to work for me though, but i cant anymore its really starting to need to be let out.

i could’ve saved you a lot of time with this:
TLDR: i fucking hate it when you think you have a talent at something and someone comes along and does it better than you. bitchy, boastful, vain, self absorbed as it is its basically just who i am. a jealous cunt :)

im betting my imaginary small loan of a million pounds* that i get a record breaking number of condemns about this, but if you made it up to here without screaming ‘THIS GIRL HAS SUCH AN INFLATED HEAD SHE NEEDS TO START UP HER OWN HOT AIR BALLOON SERVICE’ then i applaud you, my good stranger unless i know you except i probably dont know that a person i know is reading a rant without knowing its me… confusing :) ta-ta for now i’ll probably be back to claim my drama queen of the year award

*(im british ;) jealous? your probably not but LETS JUST PRETEND U ARE TO FEED MY EGO!!!!!)

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