Posted 5th June 2011 69

I was seeing this guy around the same time last year, he was so lovely. We got on really well, he treated me nicely, he said nice things, he acted completely like he was into me, and the more he did that, the more I got into him. (This was recently after I had split up with a boyfriend so it might have had an impact, but I liked him a lot anyway..in fact, I liked him before he told me he liked me. Anyway..) We spent a lot of time together, hanging out, texting and whatnot, then he just suddenly stops acting like he did. I question him and he says it’s because he’s too scared of being in a relationship, and that was fine with me, I just didn’t want to be messed around. We didn’t carry on “seeing” each other, but we remained good friends, and ever since I started liking him, I’ve carried this torch for him because he made me so happy when I thought my life was ending.

Anyway, we’re quite good friends, or were, I’m not sure. He’d chat to me a lot, hug me, look out for me, joke with me etc, but then he suddenly stopped that too. Tonight I go out to find that he’s hanging out with one of my friends and acting suspiciously like he did with me. I don’t know whether I’m being stupid here, but this hurt my feelings a little bit. For one, he’s flirting and trying to get with (as far as I can see) one of my friends, and secondly, my friend is okay with this, already knowing that we were once seeing each other. I’m seeing this as taking my leftovers, and it’s in front of my face. I don’t think I would mind, but I still really care about this guy and it just upset me that neither of them really gave a shit. I know what the both of them are like, so they will probably get together. Horrible as it sounds, if they do, I hope he does the same to her as he did to me and just leave her then go onto another girl. It’s tough. Being a girl I find it difficult to let things regards to dating and relationships go…I take things like this to heart. Maybe I should or maybe I shouldn’t, it still happens and I just wanted to get this off my chest.

This is such a long post. Feels better after writing it out though. I know I’m being selfish, but I don’t want anything to happen between them, I still want him to like me as much as I like him (even as a friend). Meh.

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