Posted 11th July 2010 2423

I’m SO MAD because part of the reason I broke up with my ex was because of him inviting his flirty coworker R to his birthday party and having no issue with her giving half the guys at the party a (clothed) lap dance with the awful friend she brought along. He particularly didn’t see why it was an issue for me that the two of him were giving HIM a combined lapdance in the living room where everyone could see.

Yeah, because that wouldn’t make me feel upset or embarrass me in front of ALL of our mutual friends.

Anyway, since the break up we’ve remained friends and occassionally catch up. Confession time, I actually checked his phone when he went to the bathroom because I heard a text. Read through the LONG text conversation he’d been having with her that night we’d been out, and apparently on other nights we’d been out. He is discussing our relationship (whatever that is!) with HER.

He knows how I feel about her and that I do not want her invited to or brought to anything that I am attending, unless unavoidable (e.g birthdays) at which time I will happily put on my ‘Katherine Hepburn’ poker face and tolerate her existence in the friendliest way possible. Because of this it is apparently MY fault and he has the BALLS to BITCH about the fact that he can’t catch up with her because I’m apparently “being a bitch”. What the hell! I felt SO DIRTY because we actually hooked up that night and the phone ‘borrowing’ was post coital…

I couldn’t confess to reading his phone, but I was SO MAD and resolved that I would remain ARMS LENGTH friends with him so he couldn’t upset me like that again by treating me so disrespectfully.

But then last night we were out with a group of mutual friends, we got very drunk, one thing lead to another and I broke my resolve again. I’m so mad at myself!

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