Search

Subscribe

Receive daily digests of our latest posts.

RSS Or subscribe to our RSS feed.
FeedBurner

Popular Tags

abandoned, abortion, abroad, absolute, absolutely, abuse, abused, abused hatred jealousy evny, abusive, accept, accident, acting, actions, active, addicted, addiction, adults, advice, affair, afraid, alcohol, alcoholism, alright, amazing, american, amusing, anger, angry, annoyance, annoyed, annoying, answer, answered, anxiety, anxious, anymore, apartment, apologize, apparently, application, appreciation, approach, argument, artist, asexual, asexuality, asshole, assholes, attached, attention, attitude, attraction, attractive, august, average, awesome, awful, awkward, babies, baby, backstab, backstabbing, bailed, banging, barely, bastard, bathroom, beating, beautiful, beauty, bedroom, begged, beginning, belittle, bestfriend, betrayal, betrayed, bigger, bipolar, birth control, birthday, bisexual, bitch, bitches, bitching, bitchy, bitter, blamed, bloody, body, bored, boring, borrow, boss, bosses, bossy, bother, bottle, bottom, bought, boyfriend, boyfriends, boys, break, breaking, breaks, breakup, breathe, broken, brother, brothers, bullies, bullshit, bullying, burden, burnt, business, buying, called, calling, cancer, can’t, career, caring, cats, caught, chance, change, changed, chatroom, chatting, cheat, cheated, cheater, cheating, chemistry, child, childish, children, choice, chores, christian, christianity, christmas, cigarettes, classes, cleaning, clients, closest, college, coming, comment, commitment, common, communication, community, companies, complain, complaining, complete, completely, complicated, confess, confession, confidence, confused, confusing, confusion, constant, constantly, continue, continues, control, control freak, controlling, conversation, conversations, convinced, cooking, cops, couldn, counter, country, county, couple, couples, cousin, cousins, coworker, crap, crazy, creepy, crush, crushed, crying, cultural appropriation, culture, cunt, cunts, customers, customers suck, cutting, damned, dating, daughter, dead, death, decent, decide, decided, decides, decisions, degree, delusional, depressed, depression, depressive, design, desire, despise, destroy, details, dick, dickhead, difference, difficult, discussing, disease, disgust, disgusting, dishes, dislike, disrespectful, distance, divorce, doctor, dogs, dollars, double, douche, douchebag, drama, dramatic, drawing, dreams, drinking, driver, drivers, drives, drugs, drunk, dumb, dumbass, dumped, dysphoria, earlier, education, effectively, effort, embarrassing, emotional, emotionally, emotions, empty, energy, engaged, entire, everyday, everytime, evil, ex-boyfriend, excuse, excuses, exes, exhausted, existence, expect, expectations, experienced, explanation, extremely, facebook, faggot, fail, failure, fair, fake, fallen, falling, family, fantasies, father, favorite, favour, fear, feel, feeling, feelings, female, feminism, feminists, fetish, fiance, fiends, fighting, figure, filthy, finally, financial, finding, finish, finished, fire, flatmates, flirt, flirting, follow, food, foot, forced, forever, forgave, forget, forgive, forgiveness, freak, freaking, freedom, friend, friend zone, friends, friends benefits, friendship, friendships, frustrated, frustrating, frustration, fuck, fucked, fuckers, fuckin, fucking, fucking bitch, fucks, funny, future, game, gamer, gender, genderfluid, generally, giggle, girl, girlfriend, girlfriends, girls, giving, gladly, goddamn, good, gorgeous, gossip, government, grades, graduate, grandmom, greedy, gross, ground, groupie, grudge, guilty, guys, handle, hanging, happen, happened, happiness, happy, hardcore, harm, hate, hateful, hating, hatred, health, heart, heart break, heartache, heartbreak, heartbroken, hell, helped, helping, helpless, high school, highschool, history, home, homeless, homework, homophobe, homophobic, homosexual, honest, honestly, honesty, hoodies, hope, hopeless, hormones, horrible, hospital, household, housemate, hurt, husband, husbands, hypocrite, identity, idiot, idiots, ignorance, ignorant, ignore, ignoring, imagine, immature, important, in-laws, inches, including, inconsiderate, injustice, insane, insecure, insensitive, inside, insurance, intense, interest, interested, interests, internet, irritated, irritating, issues, i’m, japan, jealous, jealousy, jerk, jerks, jobs, keyboard, kicked, kids, kill, killing, kiss, knowing, laptop, latest, laughing, lazy, league, lesbian, lesbians, lgbt, liar, liars, lies, life, life sucks, liking, listen, listening, literally, living, lonely, longest, looked, loser, losers, losing, lost, lost respect, love, love sucks, loved, loving, lust, lying, making, male, manager, manchild, manipulation, manipulative, manners, marriage, married, masturbate, matter, meaning, medium, meeting, mental, mental health, merchandise, message, messaged, messages, messed, middle, military, mind, minute, minutes, misandry, miserable, misery, miss, missing, mississippi, moment, moments, money, months, morning, moron, mother, movie, moving, muffin, multiple, murder, music, nagging, narcissist, nasty, needed, needy, negative, nephew, nervous, netflix, nice, nightmare, noise, normal, notice, number, oblivious, obsessed, obsession, offended, officers, older, online, opinions, pain, paranoid, parent, parenting, parents, partner, passed, passive aggressive, past, pathetic, paying, people, people suck, peoples, perfect, period, person, personal, personality, personally, pharmacy, phones, physical, physically, pickup, pictures, pissed, places, planet, played, playing, pleading, police, politics, pompous, popular, porn, positive, poverty, pregnancy, pregnant, pressure, pretend, pretentious, pretty, primary, privacy, problem, problems, projects, prom, promise, psycho, pulled, pushing, putting, questions, quickly, quit, race, racism, racist, rage, raging, raised, random, rant, ranting, rape, rave, real, realize, realized, reason, recently, refused, refuses, rejected, relapse, related, relationship, relationship problems, relationships, religion, religious, remember, remind, replaced, replied, respect, response, responsibility, restaurant, retail, retard, retarted, return, rich, riding, romance, roomate, roommate, roommates, rude, ruined, rules, sadness, saving, scared, school, scrape, scream, scum, scumbag, secret, secretly, secrets, selfish, selling, separate, serving, sexism, sexuality, shallow, shaming, sharing, shit, shitty, shitty people, shooting, shut, siblings, sick, silence, simple, sing, single, sister, sister-in-law, sisters, sitting, situation, skank, skills, skinny, slag, sleep, slut, small penis, smart, smiles, smoking, social, socially, society, soldier, sorority, speaking, special, spending, spoiled, sports, stalker, started, starting, starts, stealing, step, stereotype, stereotyping, stop, stopped, stories, straight, strangers, stress, stressed, strong, struggling, stuck, student, stupid, stupid bitch, successful, suck, sucks, sudden, suicidal, suicide, summer, sunday, supposed, surgery, surprised, surrounded, swearing, taking, talented, talk, talked, talking, teacher, teachers, teen, teenage, teenager, teenagers, tellin, telling, text, texting, therapy, things, thinking, thinks, thought, thoughts, throat, time, tired, tomorrow, totally, toxic, transgender, trapped, treated, treating, treats, trouble, trust, truth, tumblr, turkey, turned, turning, twitter, typical, ugly, unattractive, understand, underweight, unemployed, unfair, ungrateful, unhappy, uniform, university, unloved, unwanted, upset, useless, vacation, vent, virgin, waiting, waking, wannabe, wanted, wanting, warning, watching, weak, weather, weed, weekend, weight, weird, welfare, white, whore, whores, wife, wives, woman, women, wonderful, wondering, work, worked, working, worried, worry, worthless, wouldn, wouldnt, wrists, writing, yelling, yesterday, younger, youtube, …more

Latest Comments

I’m tired. 30th March 2018
WHAT! 30th March 2018
Forum Rage 25th March 2018
Problems with bf 23rd March 2018
Seriously? 18th March 2018
I hate my daughter 16th March 2018
Control your kid in public or I will 16th March 2018
Slut ass bitch friend 16th March 2018
I HATE MY MATH CLASS 13th March 2018
Why can’t I help myself? And why won’t life give me a break? 11th February 2018

Propaganda

Help promote RAGING Bile Duct

Digg reddit Delicious StumbleUpon
Facebook MySpace Twitter Google

Find us on Facebook
Follow RAGING Bile Duct on twitter

Hosted By

RAGING Bile Duct is hosted by the excellent IdleServ Web Hosting Solutions.

This website is hosted by IdleServ - providing cheap and affordable web hosting!
Cheap and Affordable Web Hosting

I dont know who to be mad at, but Im pissed!

Posted 24th October 2013 29

My first marriage was never accepted by my family. I spent ten years of my life feeling in the middle of my ex and my family. I moved all over the country because I didnt feel comfortable being near my family as long as I was with my ex. When we split up, my family didnt console me.. instead they felt the need to remind me how much they thought she was a piece of shit. I guess I should mention Im a lesbian and although my family insists they are not biggots, I know otherwise becuase I grew up in that house and I myself was very homophobic before I realised I was gay. Because I was subjected to hate mongrels my entire life to that point. Anyway I have recently become engaged to another partner and my biggest fear telling my family was that they wouldnt support me in this marriage either. I couldnt bear the thought of entering in a new marriage without the support of those closest to me. It took me two months to get the courage to tell my mother. When I did I got the reaction of “I dont know what to tell you about that”. Then she changed the subject entirely to how much of an ass my dad is. I admit i flew off the handle and posted my anger and frustration to a public forum, calling out my family without the use of names and letting them know that I was angry. Im upset because i support all of them equally, thru thier own marriages, and announcements of engagements and adoptions and promotions ect but when it comes to my happiness, I dont even get a congratulations?!? Then my oldest brother goes on to further insult my fiance’ when hes only met the girl 2-3 times. He accused her of “telling stories” or in other words, called her a liar and attacked her family, her character and integrity while also comparing stating that shes just like my ex. He was mad becuase I put him in the spotlight and called bullshit in a public way. I am upset with myself for doing this becuase I lost control of my anger. I had an emotional outburst that was the result of ten years of feeling unsupported and suppressed. But what happened as a result of that was way out of hand. Im not sure who to be mad at any more. I felt justified doing what I did at first but now Im pissed off at my brother for what hes said about my girl and im mad at myself for losing control and ultimately setting myself and my partner up for attacks. This is what I didnt want but ultimately I brought it on and now I have no idea how to fix it. Now I will enter another marriage without my family being anywhere involved and this hurts me most of all. I shouldnt have to choose between my family and my partner. Especially when I have accepted each and every one of their partners and been happy for their happiness reguardless of my personal opinion of these people. I dont know what to do now. My choices feel limited; walk away from my familiy’s judging hatred forever or try to repair and live an oppressed life where everything is fine as ong as we dont talk about it. I lived that way for 10 years and I was not happy. The only reason I held on to my family is becuase I have several nieces and nephews that I dont want to lose in this battle. And in a way, I am what their parents teach them to hate and my presence in their lives could maybe be the one thing to allow them to grow up and make their own decisions. Im so lost right now.

Got something to say? Post Now! It’s totally anonymous… rant or confess about anything!

Bookmark This Page

Digg reddit Delicious StumbleUpon Facebook MySpace Twitter Google

Comments

Nobody has posted any comments. Be the first!

Add Comment

Enter an alias, you may leave this blank
Make your thoughts about this post known to the world

Post a confession or rant now! It’s completely anonymous.