Posted 6th June 2017 1018

I’ve been saying him for nearly three weeks now. I wanted the relationship, pursued him, make the plans…

But I can’t get Justin out of my mind. When I think of laughter, it’s J’s. When I close my eyes to kiss, it’s J I’m kissing.

The problem? Justin died a year and a halfago. We were going to get married and nite I’m realizing I can’t be over him this quickly. I maynever get over him. Nite I’m realizing how big a piece of shit I am fit trying to stay a new relationship and running new guys life. I did that to Justin before and we were just recovering from it. After ten years of stupidness we were finally together as it should be and he was taken from me. Nite I’m going to hurt someone else and I can’t handle it. Do I stay and make him happy? Happy like I couldn’t make Justin?

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