Posted 8th August 2013 1627

Well… we lost our phones/internet like two days ago because we couldn’t pay the bill. I alerted my friends online (including one friend who is really more of a pain in my side) that I would be offline for an unknown length of time. Well, someone helped us pay the bill so we have internet back… but I haven’t told any of my online friends, especially the pain in my side one. I have plans this weekend and I know if I tell her I have internet but I’m not going to be at home she’ll have a pissy attitude with me for not spending my free time online with her. Stupid, right? I shouldn’t even be bothered by her. I should tell her to get over it and let me have my life. But due to anxiety issues and I guess deeper psychological issues I still am affected by her clinging and attitudes. So it’s just easier to lie, because if I ‘can’t’ be online then she ‘can’t’ be mad at me for not spending time online. The problem is I’m afraid she’ll find out and just be even angrier at me for lying. I live in a house with 3 other people who are all on facebook, and none of them are friends with her but fb’s privacy options are so freaking stupid she could maybe still see something they post. I’ve taken all the precautions I know short of blocking her and unfriending her on there (which I can’t do without a shitstorm following). And if she decides to call my house (stupid of me to give her my number, I know. I was younger and really foolish) she’ll see our phones work. so…. I don’t know what to do. If I tell her that we have internet but that I have plans this weekend, she’ll have a pissy attitude and I ‘ll feel guilty and anxious and horrible and not enjoy my plans. But if I don’t tell her I’ll be anxious worrying that she’ll find out I’m lying and It’ll ruin my weekend too. It’s just a sucky situation and I’m not sure what to do about it.

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