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I just want to know why the hell I’m not allowed to make mistakes. Why do they expect perfection from me? Why do they make such a big deal out of me mistyping a word or doing something else wrong? Even when I’m not mistaken - they go to great lengths to try and prove otherwise and if I defend myself and eventually prove that in fact, I was right all along, the reaction I get is “well okay! Calm down! No need to fight about this!”. And frankly, I wouldn’t even fight. I’d just explain my point of view and give them proof to back it up.
When I’m wrong, I don’t mind people telling me that… but must they do it in the most humiliating, degrading manner that makes me feel as if I’m a stupid idiot who doesn’t have a place amongst them? They make more mistakes than I do! So *why*?? Why can’t they just leave me alone?
And then, my ‘friends’. Oh, joy. If I want to talk to them about how much this hurts me, they go “those are just small things, don’t be so oversensitive” and how can I explain how much it seriously hurts me? I don’t have the energy to even try talking with them anymore, and if I cry or show signs that I have cried, they go “oh come ON. Just move on and focus on something else.” or they’ll just give each other looks that tell more than anything about what they think. Which in turn means that I can’t even cry unless I’m alone at home.
And that hurts a lot too, because it’s me they come to when they have troubles and want to rant. I listen to them, I try to help them, so is it really too much to ask for them to just… do the same to me? Or am I being selfish?
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Posted by Anonymous 17th February 2012
Those friends aren’t friends at all. Try finding people who actually care about you, and then once you think they won’t blow you off, tell them about your problems.And it’s not selfish at all, they’re the ones being selfish by coming to you with their problems but just laughing at yours.
Remember, nobody’s perfect. So don’t try to make yourself just because of other people’s comments or standards. Just be yourself and if people don’t like that they can go do something else.