Posted 23rd January 2013 1217

I’m not sure if I’m overreacting. Probably am. I was talking to my boyfriend today about how I got a substitute spot in our city’s Symphony orchestra. Being a high school string player who started out very late but is finally excelling thanks to the long hours of practice and devotion to violin and viola, I’m naturally going to be very excited about this(plus, I’m being paid as a normal musician in the orchestra would). Music is really important to me, anyone who knows anything more about me than my name will tell you this. I talk about it a lot because it’s what makes me happy and it’s the reason I don’t come home wanting to fucking kill myself every day. Most of all, I got myself to where I am ALONE. I took up the violin by my own choice, I’m paying for private lessons myself, and I bought my violin and viola with my own money. Naturally, I’m very involved being in three different orchestras, a string quartet, and I have a lesson for both instruments on different days every week.
Today I mentioned to my boyfriend that I’ll be getting paid $30 an hour at rehearsals and concerts for substituting in the Symphony this week, and when he dropped me off at home, word for word, he said “Get a more interesting life… the Symphony is all you ever talk about.”
I was shocked.. it caught me off guard. But the second he drove away I replayed it in my head and I just thought, damn, that has to be one of the rudest, most insulting things I’ve ever been told.
I’d understand if I was a half-assed player or something…. but music is extremely important to me, as I mentioned.
I apologize for elaborating so much; I’ve never been able to write summarily. I needed to say something about this to someone but my friends aren’t very fond of my boyfriend already for past issues that aren’t relevant, so saying anything to them would be useless. Thanks to anyone who made it this far.

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