Posted 11th August 2016 1824

Today was my first day of school, and its a private school. This is my 4th new school in 3 years. My grade only has 19 people in it, so having a new kid is a rarity. I was like a shiny new toy or something. The thing is though, I hate socializing. I don’t like talking to people, so having all these people trying to talk to me made me feel very wrong, and I would try and hold small talk but I’m such an awkward person that they just looked at me weird when I inevitably said something stupid. I sat alone at lunch today, plugged in my headphones and started reading this book. The school cafeteria lady saw me sitting alone and yelled out to the WHOLE CAFETERIA (which was like 30 people since its a small school) that she was disappointed that they made the new kid sit alone on her first day. It was so embarrassing, especially when she basically commanded this group sitting near me to come sit with me. These two girls with no respect for private space at all sat right up against me on both sides, thigh to thigh, and I was very uncomfortable. They all started trying to talk to me awkwardly, and I could tell they were only talking to me because the lady told them to. This one girl told her other friend that she was only sitting there because the lady told her to. It was so embarrassing. That lady made me very angry. She thinks she knows me and thinks I want to sit with people and talk to them?? I was sitting alone, with HEADPHONES IN, reading A BOOK, I OBVIOUSLY DON’T WANT TO TALK TO ANYBODY. I hate adults who think that all people want to have friends and that its “healthy,” and they think somethings wrong with you when you just want to be alone. But I hate girls my own age. They all focus on stupid things like Instagram and Twitter and celebrities and stupid shows and make-up and their hair and appearance and POINTLESS THINGS that don’t benefit them in the least. They don’t care about their grades and only care about their relationships or who’s the cutest boy?? or what drama is going on and who is dating who and its SO ANNOYING. I don’t want to talk to these stupid people. Sure it sounds kind of narcissistic and arrogant, but these people are stupid and I don’t want to hang around them. Talking to people and making friends is pointless. You get nothing done, and the only thing they are is a distraction. Why can’t adults understand that theres nothing wrong with wanting to be alone and that I DONT WANT THEM TO HELP ME MAKE FRIENDS. I DONT WANT FRIENDS YOU STUPID CAFETERIA LADY. STOP TRYING TO SET ME UP IM NOT A DUMB BLONDE BITCH WHO WANTS TO BE FRIENDS WITH MARY SUES. why can’t people just leave me alone???? argggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh

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