Posted 28th November 2008 1517

well it was going good till college - the father figure who was a drunk. when college started and well some of high school is when drugs came into the big picture. Lots of drug… everyday. Anyhow back on the story failed outa college 3 times iv had my best friend OD in front of me on my birthday R.i.p. man, 2 weeks after that another one of my best friends breaks his C2 in his neck b.c he got hit by a drunk driver couldnt bring myself to see him for a month, watched most of my friends and my ex-GF takin via paddy wagon i havent seen or talked to any of them in well over a year but i was on my way to the house when the po raided the house, my niece was recently raped and almost beatin todeath and this is all in the span of 2.5 years. But somehow iv managed to stay outa trouble and avoid death. People dont know what iv been thru how hard my life has been and how dark the blackness in a person can actually be im not one of those people that think this world is better w.o them sucide is a cop out but i fell under the hands of physcadelics over the summer and fell in love with the hippy ways. I think i can see the light from this madness which is life. I believe iv made it thru the blackness for a reasoni think and i do believe there is more for me then what i am but sometimes i donno maybe i just got lucky on avoiding jail and death. but sometimes i feel that all this shit is happening to me b.c i shouldnt be living the life style im living like there warning signs about something bigger if i continue down this path but to get out i literally would have to break contact with all my friends and friends are the single most important thing a person can have even more important then family.

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