Posted 26th May 2014 412

you dont have to read or reply but yeah.
I fucking hate society. I remember when I moved, I was in love with the city, the schools, and the people. I take people back now. Near the end of 5th grade(when I arrived), everyone already had friends and I was this lonely pile of human sitting in the corner. Then I made a friend named Audrey. She knew everyone and everyone liked her and her best friend Lauren. Finally we graduated, and during the summer my brother (who I hate because he steals from me, laughs at me, calls names at me, threatens me, and then pretends he is nice and that I should forgive him when he does it all over again) told me that Audrey was telling people who I like. But I didn’t like him anymore so….
That created my trust issues.
Then came middle school aka the hellhole. I still didn’t have any friends until this asian girl (Kathy) who was in my class came up to me and said I had weird shoes (never wore em again). We had all of our periods together, even electives, and became best friends. It was just us (kinda, the popular’s were in my class and I wanted to befriend them but there friends made me feel left out)Enter 7th grade- I got this middle school thing down, I know where I stand. Sophia aka Waterfall (long story short she got nicknamed from the spit that came out of her trumpet valve) is in my math class, which only has 10 people. I already knew some of her friends and we all became closer. Than I introduced Kathy to them, though she was reluctant because she didn’t know them. I also had guy friends-zachary logan(hot and tall, and i’m tall and hot hmm) nick(shortest in the grade) willie(annoying but were friends and hes moving to a boarding school-VERY INAPROPRO) So I combined my groups and now we have this big group of friends that hang-out and I caused it:) But now that I’m happy people have to be jerks and bring me down by calling me slut and whore for hanging with guys and alot of people, and call me fat and ugly because they think I think I’m “all that”. So yup it gave me insecurity, depression, and sucicdal thoughts(less of them now). Some of my friends know this but not all but I take the bullying for them because I’ve already been broken so many times. This is only my school problems.

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