Posted 13th December 2016 510

I am so sick of my mom right now. I mean I still love her and she has her good moments, but she can be such a fucking bitch sometimes. I’m a quiet and shy girl, so my mom is trying to get me to braver and take a little more risks, but her way of encouraging me is by insulting me! And it’s not just on the topic of my shyness, it’s also on my weight, my grades, my social skills, and literally anything she get her hands on.

She insults me whenever I get her angry, which is almost always because I did a different way of doing things then her and almost everyday, and shouts out insults that most of time don’t have anything to do with the subject she’s angry at me about, like “You’re so fat! Do you want to end up like [Name] from my work?! Why don’t you exercise!?” and sometimes just shouts out “Stupid!” and “How can a pretty mom like me have a daughter that’s as ugly as you?” and also “You’re sick!” and even “Your way is stupid!” and “Do you think you’ll be able to go to that university with your low grades? You’re too stupid to get accepted!” and “No boy would ever like you!” and the list goes on and on.

She wants me to braver and I do too, but how does she expect to do that if she keeps insulting me, making my self esteem lower everyday. She thinks she’s helping but she’s actually just making my shyness even worse. At school, I can never be myself because I’m afraid someone will make fun of me for who I am, which my mom does. I’m pretty sure she is the cause of this shyness problem. I can never wear headphones in the house relaxed if she’s there, because I’m afraid she’ll shout at me from the other side of the house and I won’t hear it. And if I don’t hear it, she comes to where I am and shouts at me for 10 minutes about how I’m always on my phone.

Even my little brother and my dad is scared of her. She gets riled up so easily and when she does, she starts screaming the whole house up, which lasts probably an hour or more. Multiple times when she was angry when I was about to go to sleep, she makes me stop what I’m doing to listen to her insult and rant about me for 40 minutes! And so When I do go to sleep it’s much later then I originally planned to sleep at!

There is so many more things about her that are ruining my life! I think I’m better off living somewhere else where I don’t have to here her insults and start getting my life back.

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