Posted 2nd January 2016 2430

My ‘friends’ forget about me all the time. They forgot my birthday, despite the fact I try to make/buy something for them on their birthdays. On Dec 20th, there was a small party I was invited to, yet I was able to leave (I was sick) without anyone but the host noticing. Just yesterday they had a new years party and forgot about me. Everyone else in my school is the same as them, so I can’t find new friends. So I’m going into CyberSchool, because these people who claim to care about me don’t notice if I’m there at all.
Within this group, there is also a girl I used to be friends with. After 2 years of an abusive friendship I choose to leave. When I expected my ‘friends’ to back me up, I was left alone. This girl torments me, glares, nasty words, stupid stuff like that. But, they all take her side. I have no one to help me. The school told me to ‘talk it out’ with her, I tried, I swear. She is a lying drama queen, but no one believes me. She claims to cut, and be suicidal to get attention. I know this isn’t true. But everyone believes her.
I have been severely depressed for almost a year now, and have tried to kill myself 6 times. But they don’t notice my pleas for help, as mine aren’t in words. But they believe her’s, as she screams it out.
When I told my mother about my depression after my first suicide attempt. She said that I would get help. It never came.
I told her again around the end of September, she was going to set up help for me. 3 months later, no help.
The only ‘person’ that helps me is my cat, Vinney. But as we are low in money, I was told I might have to lose him if we move. My mother doesn’t understand that my cat as saved me from suicide. He is the only help I have.

If you have read this whole thing, Thank you.
From the bottom of my heart, Thank you.

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