Posted 3rd September 2013 815

Im locked up in my room every day searching Craigslist, filling out job applications, answering phone calls and trying to get college shit worked out and my mom has the audacity to tell me I’m wasting my life away when SHE is the neighborhood drug dealer. What the fuck is wrong with her. I can’t wait until I get my life together. I can’t wait until I never have to see her and her ignorance again. Shes racist, sexist, homophobic, and she is doing nothing but bringing my life down. She expects me to act like an adult, go to school, bring money in the house, and then puts me down when ever I try and blames me.

I wake up at 10AM every morning and don’t come out of my room because I don’t want to deal with her making me feel like shit for trying my best and all she thinks is that I sleep all day. To be fair, yea, ive slept in a few times, more then I should have, but if you treat me like I’m a shitty person I might as well act like it.

With everything she’s done to me and everything she’s put me through she still owes me. You would think it would sink in her thick skull that shes doing something wrong when 2/3 of her children constantly think about suicide. Good job mom, you’ve tortured you children with full of shit fathers and never learned your lesson the first 8 times. Now I pay the price when I can’t sleep because I’m scared for my life, and she wonders why I sleep in sometimes when nightmares still keep me up.

She shouldn’t be aloud to blame or judge me. Not for my scars, not for my sleep, not anything, she doesn’t deserve it and some day soon she’s going to realize how much shes fucked up. After that day she better hope she never sees me again because if she does it’ll be the day I crack and jump into traffic.

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