Posted 29th September 2011 2021

Look I would love to go into depth about it. I WOULD LOVE TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTIONS.BUT you don’t ask me. I am not talking about, referring to, or even hinting. @you online. My deepest desire is to be able to say what is on my mind, vent about RANDOM shit. And go on about my lfe. But everytime I put my thumbs to the keyboard, I gotta worry aboutvwhether or might possibly affect you. If you are going to clam up, if you are going to say a fucking stupid reply that others connect to my facebook comments. I admit that sometimes I have used a passive aggressive technique but the people those comments were aimed at were getting the same treatment from you. Always, evrytime I give my opinion or make a comment it is not meant t pull off the same shit. You have been made aware of my concern for you, my loyalty to you and my hopes that you are NOT obsessing over the things I say.
But I cannot help anymore but start to wonder what you are hiding? Or what you have done? Or said? Or what your motives are. Behind all this anguish, is this guilt? Or are you going insane? I am truely worried. Sometimes you scare me and I am beginning to put up a guard because of that and I am scared to do that because I am thinking that you will insist that this is proof of your total commitment to your side of the story. Why would I continually Kiss Your Ass? Why would I visit your page to make a total fool out of myself if I was wasting all this time to think of comments specially designed to crack your brain in half? Why would I want to Lol like an asshole to everyone and treat my friends like this basically, efeectvely letting the world know that I am really an untrustworthy bastard who is not good friendship material when all. I have to offer the world is my word, my trustworthiness.
If you think about it I would be putting my entire reputation at stake to get a cheap laugh and put you down, someone I really admire, or did admire. PLUS LOOK LIKE AN ASS TO EVERYONE ELSE WHO MIGHT BE INVOLVED or watchful enough to notice. It really does not add up.
I am really starting to get pissed off. I want to close my account. Or block you, just so I can speak. Instead I had to find another place to go to say what I really think.. what are you doing that makes you so touchy with me? What are you saying behind my back???

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