Posted 9th February 2016 713

Well. I am that typical suicidal teen. Yes. Suicidal as you read through the title. I will just confess about my feelings here as I need to do it or I might just spill everywhere. So, as you are reading this. I will remind you that I will pour my heart out here and everything that comes to mind.
So let’s start. First I’d have to say I have had this for 5 years now. Dunno what you’re thinking, but I think it’s just stupid. Me being an attention whore and a faggot or something like that. I am stupid and an idiot and I do hope that I die I really do.
Well excuse me for that. I do that usually to me when I am thinking about my problems. It makes me feel at ease that I can blame me for being those things. So now let’s go to this topic. Yes, I do in fact swim in self pity and hate. Calling myself by insults and playfully saying maybe you should Kill yourself you fucking idiot attention whore.
So now to the question (I am being way too random) Why haven’t I killed myself over the 5 years? Well haha. That I would like to know myself too, but I do know the reason deep inside me. I think it’s because I am scared of dying and I have a family. Dunno about friends. I have been horrible to me when my depression started. So they might just hate me. Though I know they don’t trust me, Haha. But yeah, I have a loving family. I don’t know what my parents would do, maybe cry or something and like that.
No this is not yet ending lol, you probably want it to end or you just clicked off.
But yes now another thing I want to tell, I haven’t told anybody close to me. I have vented on the internet before like an attention whore I am, but I have never told my parents nor my friends nor my dog.
But yes. There now see you NOT later.

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