Posted 24th November 2013 38

The reason I didn’t jump at the 1st hint of you liking me & trying to ask me out is because I’m not quick to trust people, & I’ve been raised strictly, it took me a while to like you, & liking someone that much was still too new for me. I hope you are happy to know that when you’ve gone missing I squeezed every brain cell to remember your full name as I had overheard it and was so relieved to come across your video. I wasn’t playing games. I wasn’t playing hard to get. I wasn’t being an asshole. It was all just too new to me. & then finally when I’ve come around & you appeared out of the blue, I figured it was my chance to show I care for you. & I did. I told you about how I asked about you when you were gone. I asked if you had seen the comment on your video & apologized for it. you told me that you had and that it was alright that I didn’t have to feel sorry & delete it like I did. If you think I went there for a cup of tea, you must be fucked up. & if you think when I asked you to play the guitar for me that I was desperate, you must be twice as fucked up. I only took it as a chance to find a way to hang out with you & figure if you care about me. when you didn’t show up until weeks later, smiling with your kiffeyeh I felt so angry. that night I went to my usual open mike & hugged a guy out of spite. I know it’s stupid but it’s because you were always teasin me bout how good I am & I just wanted to prove that you aren’t to simply show up & leave when you want expecting me to like you. & that day you called me an exotic dancer & asked if I simply ask randos to play for me. Then when you said you really didn’t care at all what I do, you really hurt me. You made me feel like I was imposing myself on you. Which I have no intention of doing. Because you said that, my knee jerk reaction was an instant “is that so?” & so the good gal let a guy who has been showing clear signs of interest in her for some time, feel her up. She didn’t enjoy it. She was just resentful & so she let him do that to her in public, at the open mike place where she told you she’d hope to see you. She figures you may really be happy without her because she’s done waiting on you to be a man & care about her. That’s why I hopped on a plane & got as far away from you as possible. Have a good life.

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