Posted 18th May 2017 1918

I live with my Mom and let me start out by saying that she is an insane control freak! She feels the need to dictate what I wear, what I eat, where I go, when I wake up, when I go to bed and basically what, when and how I do things. And never once have I yelled and her or ever shown her any disrespect. But I’m only human. I channel my rage into video games and I cry myself to sleep in either anger, frustration or sadness. And now something terrible has happened: Our periods have synced. When I’m pmsing, I have mood swings that basically alternate between crankiness, depression, need for comfort and hyper-activeness and I’ve come up with ways to deal with them maybe not in a healthy way but a way nonetheless. These include more video games, more crying to sleep with the occasional crying in the shower and now I can add ranting on the internet to that list. But when I cry my eyes get really red and God forbid my mom notices them because then she goes, “You need to learn how to control your emotions” which is so bloody hypocritical because this is how she is when she’s PMSing: She’s cranky all the time and rages at anyone around her and she complains about how everyone is against her. And now that we’re pmsing at the same time, my depression has gotten worse and no amount of happy movies help and I can’t sleep most nights and the other day I ended up crying in front of my mother and she then proceeded to yell at me for crying and she complained to my father and all her friends about how I’m a cry-baby. My father travels a lot for work so he’s never at home and I have to deal with this alone. My current job is at my hometown so I’m forced to stay with my mother and my contract is about to end this month and I’ve decided to get a new job as far away from a hag as possible!

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