Posted 4th November 2011 2332

My best friend, out of the blue, tells me that ?We need a break, because I don?t think I can do this anymore.? She tells me, ?You?re too controlling.? When I ask her to elaborate, she won?t give me an example on HOW I?m ?too controlling?. After I tear her, my best friend of TWO FREAKING YEARS, out of my heart, I find out she?s talking sh*t about me behind my back!! This is after she, AND her mother, told me ?It?s just that you?re/we?re both leaders, and sometimes you need to let me/her lead. Don?t let your/our friendship go, we/you just need a break. We can still be friends.?. She was going around saying that I never told her we were best friends, though SHE?S the one who first said it! She told her new bff?s that I?m basically a lying, controlling, manipulative b*tch who can?t take a joke or criticism.
That was almost a year and a half ago. Apparently, she finally got a Facebook, because I?ve gotten 6 friend requests from her. I?ve denied every one. After I tore EVERY DAMN PICTURE and broke EVERY DAMN THING OF HERS, after she DESTROYED my ability to trust fully ever again, after that B*TCH betrayed me? Oh, I forgot to say what REALLY happened.
Turns out it was her motherf*cking PARENTS who told her to stop being so close to me. She?s a STUCK-UP Pastor?s kid. If you?re not familiar with those, almost all of them think they?re sooooo much better than everyone else because their parents are pastors. MY family, despite being more involved, devoted, and hard-working than the HEAD PASTOR, was shunned and NEVER accepted. We were outcasts. I thought that B*TCH was better than most pk?s. For TWO YEARS I believed she was truly a good person. Now I find out she?s just like the stereotype.
We had been a well-known friendship, and when the ?break-up? happened, suddenly I started getting shunned by acquaintances who used to say ?Hi? to me. I discovered who my REAL friends were, and discovered I could count them on ONE HAND.
Anyways, after utterly RUINING my ability to trust easily, since she had it ALL and threw it away like TRASH, she expects me to let her back in?!? She doesn?t even know that I HATE HER!!!! I?ve fought back the urge to send her ?So Yesterday? by Hilary Duff for awhile now? But I?m seriously considering doing it if she sends me a friend request again.
After she told me we needed a break, we never got ?back together?. I avoided her as much as I could, and my family ended up moving literally across the country, from Florida to Washington state, and I thought I could start getting over her (we moved 6 months after she told me to leave her alone). She?s still a sore spot for me, but I?m starting to trust more freely, like I did before that B*TCH came in and tore me to shreds. I WON?T give myself the opportunity to cuss her out like I want to, nor will I give her the chance to get back in my life. We?ve been done since she started ignoring me.

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