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Posted 15th May 2014 27

pretty bad when random wedding dance video’s make me sick. funny in odd ways. lmaolmaolmao.we build walls to keep ourselves safe.

word o the day is anticipation. really one of my favorite 10 emotions orrr the equivilent therefore. really early on the pation turned to dread in such extremes that meh i have to work with that. and a conundrum for moi. in reality that isnt and my journey a templte for confused and frightened peeps ummm less u got a cuz childhood friend with a story that blows minds on a personal level and seriously have NO idea of crazy fuck that chases me could bee an indie could bee a character shrug. seriously unless u got THAT in your closet mehhh hard to say the effects of damage. weirdest fucking thing. buttt shrug. really aint my show and i just go with the flow.

at some point i ceased being excited for much. calm is the second word o the day. seriously unless u can get excited about stuff life is mundain and boring. new definition not the old. calm anticipation is not a workable . controlled and restrained a waste of energy. meh i dew think at some point the extreme takes over and that’s sad. butt ya work with whatcha got.

farm has some aspects as ummmmm specially this year i will KNOW what to look for and 1st rule of moi is i will with prejudice shoot to kill anybody or thing that approaches MY safety zone. imagined or real. seriously unless u r real and personally invited expect to bee handed YOUR BALLZ, sex not a consideration. as in male or female not banging in the outhouse definition. gezzzzzzzz and aliens, dire warnings in writing up there. lmaolmaolmaolmao. anddd real peeps who wish to cause moi grief ummmm i am a crack shot and really they wont let me carry a gun cause we all know i would shoot the first cow that dares to enter. baaahhhaaaaaaa seriously the one that chased me around the tree nakid ummmm we would still bee eatin steaks. gezzzzzzzz. truely i am excited and giggly bout some of the changes in my world, really aint much i could or can dew bout them sewwww i work with what i got. i got alot :D.

anddd off to c what this day holds. with luck nothing as i am tired and trying to focus through pain. really just waiting for the pain meds to kick in blues. and seriously i have to address my physical being. i cant leap at stuff the way i use to. lists and ummm focus jumpy i am on all kinds of stuff. hallway cleaning was amazing, loved the color anddd really it was just hiding under a epic layer of dirt. sighhhhh. driving me nutz not to dew the livingroom.

lmao. well known and in my history. 11 big decission for a little girl andddd seriously long drawn out endings is what i dew. i dont give up easy. i dont spend alot of time examining my past. for me it was dealt with at the time. i have never got why peeps drag crap through life. here and now has always been enough for moi.