Posted 22nd November 2010 27

so maybe i sound like a spoilt selfish bitch here, but i got a smaller part than most of my friends in the drama production, and i know i deserve at least equal parts with them. nd i am 99% sure that the teacher just gave me a shitty part because i handed in a parent’s consent form in late.

so maybe i sound like a self-centered bitch, but i know i am a better actor these people. i hate how boastful this sounds, but it’s true. i consistently got better grades than them when we did drama together WITH THE SAME TEACHER, i have won 1 speech festival and came second in another and recieved a certificate of merit in another, and i have gotten merit and distinction in the trinity guildhall exam. i also out-performed both in the auditions according to all those who watched. i tried my hardest, i was willing to commit, and i helped out as much as i could in script writing and idea pooling while my friends all laughed (in a friendly manner) at how stupid the ideas were, but the teacher loved them, though she didnt know they were mine.

it’s not just that i think i deserved the part more than them, it’s that the only reason i joined drama ECA this year was to have fun with them. i feel too mortified to think about drama now i have a crap part. it makes me feel depressed. i wanted to be able to have fun in drama. now it’s ruined by me not being able to take stuff like this.

i feel so freaking whiny, but i’m seriously sad about all of this. im considering skiving drama on thurs in favourof chinese tutoring to escape from this. how pathetic can i get.

i guess i’ll just have to live with it, and ill go ask the teacher why i got the part i did and how to improve so i can do better next time.

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