Posted 12th December 2013 38

i think we all instinctive know there is something WRONG here. andd we bop along hoping we r wrong. then something sooo mindblowing drops on us andddd. impressive to know end. much of this world is a wonder. deny it in ourselves and melt down. :(. unavoidable was my position, lesson were about ummm much of the bad we bring on ourselves or our denial , refusal to accept that this is astounding beyond anyones imagination but peeps who actually have mental disorders. that`s funny unless u have a mental disorder.

dont know why peeps would blame themselves for living in a world we didnt build. or to bee amazed by it. i dont need a picture book to see the wonder in my journey. even at it`s personal cost. really i hope peeps go to scholl and learn their own lessons. different stuff effects peeps differently and targeted is just WRONG. the concept from base was random and really the hope of many of those the subscribe. the lie is random. andddd that`s not my problem past the reality of the effects of target. my view is most is biengine fuck off smart ass aint helping

i see most as harmless unless it is specific to the indie. appearently EVERYTHING was specific to moi. anddd fabricated for research purposes. i am not unaware of the humor in that. and wonder. i aint ashamed or embrassed by my idk wouldnt call it joy but i did try and see positive and idk the most INTERESTING thing i ever did with my life. i aint embrassed by that. i do think that evolation and natural progression of my future has to bee about my health and damage in the future. it is troubling to me that peeps seek to purposely damage . i see an extreme majority and nil in reality. actually incorrect. technology in reality is an issue for me andd pretty sure it wares off . dont know what my future holds in that area. trained seal and u cant unsee what u have seen. my life forever changed but i need to start making decissions based in my reality andd ummm i aint sweating it. we dont get to say what tomorrow brings only in how we react to it.

beats being alone is fightin words and i got dishes to do. ummmm i CAN NOT or hope that the peeps closest will ever understand where i have been and my journey anddd idk i have to not put that on them and accept what they can and do contrubute to my happy and my hope and my respect and love. they carry the emotions i no longer have. i can see who i was in how they react to me anddd truely i am blessed with a wise and brave bunch. I AINT ALONE. just sayin


i dont have time for it. it can bee either or i enjoy the tht provoking and really easy ride it speaks to my rational. huh r u seriously threatening power with harm. thats just funny. andd back off

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