Posted 3rd May 2014 07

certainly sucked but most dew sooo what can ya do. i write for different reasons. today is about wtf. mostly in my head. or not. really thelittle voice that said DO IT was diffinately mine. lmao. and for a change odds were sorta in my favor. suprize. whatever. really ummm i spent all my life worrin bout money roof over head and food. now i dont worry it’sssss aout the same. some good some bad but mostly i didnt worry bout it. probably a very bad idea but most of mine r. it takes alot of work and energy to bee wrong. being good is imposible anddddd really it;’s just easier being me.

really dont have a clue who exactly that is buttt i dont think anybody does so meh. its difficult to hold peeps reasonsible for their actions especially the out and out bizarre ones. i struggle with communication. ive used this forever and i cant stop living my life. i like in writing. in person i have an endless reel of ARE U FUCKING CRAZY but the answer potencial is yes soooo shrug.

then there’s the ever present…if everybody else is crazy that NOT a good sign. certanly i struggle endlessly with how peeps react to me. weirdest fucking thing. i tell myself it all in my head butttt weirdest fucking thing yup.

also it occures to me my own personal black cloud of doom is assending. for all the insanity that is flying in technocolor at the moment in a few very long days i will bee ummmm free. the hostility scares me. free to roam my domain and seriously i got buckets to dew. everybody is mad for different reasons. i believe one big long collective exhale. scrap each other off the floor andddd proceed. we will all bee bigger better and stronger after a break. we shall heal. there really isnt any other option. it’s called life.

this one really is a hard grind for me. we r all devistated. situation not good. like trying to deal with retarded puppies. and grief and hurt and fear. seriously i give up

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