Posted 21st March 2012 310

Why do I feel like Im alone? I dont know what is wrong with me. The first and last things I think about every day is all the things I hate, which usually ends up being everyone and everything. I hate my job and I hate where I live. Its hard for me to be around people right now without wanting to stab them in their stupid faces. I guess things got worse for me after me and my last gf broke up. Everything was great at first I was so happy! Towards the end though it was hard for me to even care about her needy clingy bullshit. We broke up so she could go do this great environmental thing only to get kicked out for bringing some guy back to the peoples house she was staying at. It felt like a real slap in the face after all the time and money I put in to help her with her “dream”. Flash forward almost two years later now. I have taken a couple girls out and gotten a few numbers but I just cant make any sparks fly. My dad wasnt around much as a kid and never helped me with the ladies and just about the whole time I was with this girl was the time where most people go on lots of dates with many people. So now I have no problems talking to girls but they apparently just dont find me interesting enough or cute enough to ever call me back. I am always a gentlemen, I take these girls out to nice places, I have a car, job, and cellphone. I just wish I could find out what Im doing to turn these women off… Thats the most infuriating part for me. I just cant do this any longer its driving me insane. It kinda worries me that I think a lot about really hurting people or myself. I dont want to feel this anger anymore, its tiring. I feel I should mention that I wouldnt act on those impulses before you feel like you need to save me or something. I

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