Posted 26th August 2012 1324

i’m so sick and tired of the same schedule. i’m only 17 and i know i sound bratty but i feel like i am suffocating. first off, i’m sick of never getting to do anything. i am at the prime of my teenage years yet my parents don’t let me go out. if they do let me go out, they won’t drive me. they always tell me to “look for a ride from someone else.” they always complain about not having enough money, but oh sure they love to spend it all when they have their own friends. they work extra hours and have good jobs and yet they “don’t have money.” they always put their friends before their family. they always do. they spend whole weekends at their house and i have to come along since they won’t let me stay home alone. i waste whole weekends with their friends. and whenever i ask if i could go to the movies with friends or something they always ask “do you have money?” or something of that nature. i know that material things don’t matter, but i feel like i’m poor as fuck even though i live in a good neighborhood. i only have a limited amount of shirts and shorts that i have to mix and match so that it looks like a have a wide variety. i ask them if i could get new clothes but they say “you have enough.” bullshit. i wish i could buy my own clothes and stuff but they won’t even let me get a job. they don’t want me to get a job because apparently it’ll distract me from getting an education. no, no it won’t. i’m tired of not being able to buy my own things, and having to depend on them. even then they won’t give me anything. they expect me to get perfect grades yet i hardly get anything in return. whenever i mention that i don’t get much they always reply with “you have a roof over your head and food to eat, isn’t that enough” no, no it isn’t enough when you constantly go out with your friends but i don’t. and also, i’m tired of eating the same thing everyday. i get that we do on weekdays, but when it comes to weekends we still eat the same bullcrap. also, i’m tired of them putting everything off. they always say “i’ll do it next time/” or whatever. then the moment comes and they feel dumb for not doing it earlier. for example, i really need braces, and i really want them since my dream is to become a reporter and i need a picture perfect smile. well i first asked for them in 7th grade. they kept on saying “oh i’ll call the orthodontist next week or when i’m free.” its been 4 years and it still hasn’t happened. if i get braces now, when everyone else already has theirs off and has picture perfect teeth. yet then theres me who’s barely gonna get hers now, towards the end of high school when everything important happens. i also hate when they think they’re right and i’m wrong. like when i tell them that they’re doing something wrong or whatever and that to do it some other way, they ignore me. then they see i was right all along and are left speechless because they don’t have anything else to say. there is so much more that i can’t think of at this moment.

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