Posted 15th October 2009 412

iv dealt with this ass cheating on me his drug use and him saying he does all this becouse of me . iv always been there the one with a clear head . i stopped drugs after im found my self yelling at then my one and a half old son so i stopped . have not done any sence .. my family is my life . he cheated year’s ago . then over the past years he got hep c from one girl / . iv never cheated iv had chances to but id stop the other in mid sentance by saying im sorry but i cant.. my husben and i had another son so we have two. one like a all american kid sport’s everything . the other is still very young stating sport’s. well a few year’s ago my worst nite maer happen’d boy oldest was in a accident aa nd my world got more f-k up my husben went of the deep end any drug was his friend and anygirl who would show him any simpathy he was all there. he cheated again and my thought’s were all mess up my concern was and still is my son. my husben couldent make dsisition’s becouse he was so screwed up he would be in the room. at the hospital and fall slure his word’s saying everyone hated him . he cheated and did all the drug’s that he could we have gotten in fist fight;s . my son was in the hospital for three years and i stayed up there in a motor home my youngest and husben also . he;s stopped doing shit for a short wile i made him swear on our childrens lives. he said it would never happen again well .. it happend my hate is so deep for him there is now forgiveness or for getting . my son was gettinig better the he had his trek close witch is a hole in the neck to breath . . he had a reachen to the med’s so one of us had to stay. with him well my stomic was turning allday so i went home after being home for awile i got the feeling iv allways got . every time i feel something isent right well i went back up tp the hospital and my husben was not there so i checked on my son the nurse said he let about 15 mint’s after i did well i dold my son i will be back.. so i left i went to a couple or bar’s and found my car parked in the parking lot i got out my heart pumping so fast the adrainline flowing through my body i could feel it in my arms legs stomic .. i walked in to this bar and seen him he didnt see me then he put his arm around this girl the same girl he swore he would not contact or anything he swore on my childrens.live ’s i decked him the girl and her friend and everyone else just looked yelled at him why did you leave our son who just had surgery and is in cridicail condition . he just looked started to walk out i looked and the first thing i seen was a i beleave a yellew pool ball well i cracked the mother as hard has i could on the side of the head his ear started to bleed . he got in the car i got in the suburban and i f—ing rear ended hid all the way back to the hospital. then we went at it the police came .. see any time this guy get’s cought doing anything , he’s tell’s the police he’s thinking of killing him self just so i dont f–ck him up anymore .. so he goes for a few day’s get’s out .. awile later he does it again but this time he stayed home at our house for awlie he did good , but then again. drugs girl .but this time at my home.. he would not go to the hospital to see our son or evern bring our other son to visit be couse he was so f-cked up any ways i have gotten in so many fight’s with him and argument’s that he cant under stand why at time’s i get mad. he hasent ? done any thing for awile but i still get those feeling ’s again that it’s time for it to happen out of the 28 yr’s of marrige and all the bull shit . i should of shoot him be now . but my inner strangth is more stronger ,to stop that. any way.s his health is suffering from all the shit he has done and .. i took my son home . and he is doing very well .. .. see my husben has every excuss but the truth as why he has done this he will not talk to me. about it and yes it bug’s the shit out of mr.. and check …..??–[[== he had a visiter a son from another so what the fuck……………..,,, he cant handle stressnthe truth so gess what he went to the hospital tryed to tell me it was his hart he was stressing out .. so after test’s they sent him home but befor he left he got the flu and pneumonia shot well asshole got and infection from the shot’s aint carma good… im ridding on the edge.. and would like to here from someone thank’s

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