Posted 1st May 2011 610

I’m 24. Female. And have no idea where my life stands. I met someone, same sex and age as I, at my job a couple of years ago and from the first night we hung out we’ve been bffs ever since. We were two peas inna pot and literally finished each others thoughts. We hung out with each other every single day, even if it meant just chillin and talkin after work over a blunt. We went out to clubs with friends and always had strong chemistry on the dance floor. Now, we both are stright, hookin up with guys, and continuously getting closer. Their have been conversations that could suggest that we were playin house and livin inna fantasy with each other. At the time I didn’t live there so when I stayed the night I’d sleep in her bed and sometimes we would even cuddle. Eventually my feelings for my bff grew intense and stronger. Her and a roommate at the time got into it and she moved out. Naturally I moved in and we were still close. But weeks into livin there she has a few tough family emergencies and lost some important men in her life and from then on..all I could do was jus be there. To make my long story short, change came and time took over. Out of anger I ended up confessing to my dear friend that I wanted her, still confused. We never talked about it but she knew something had been bothering me. She jus resonded back, oh ok..I was starting to really worry about you. From then on we were/friends but every now and then I catch deep eye contact or we find ourselves being awkwardly close and so on. I have moved back home since all of this and things are very different now. We hardly ever text or talk and never make plans to hang out. I don’t know what to feel or how to feel about us now and need some serious advice on what to do. I jus want my friend back if nothing else cause I feel like we’re growing apart. But I know she’s still having a hard time with her two deaths. Am I crazy???

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